Just when things are perfect and you’re truly happy, things always crumble.
Somehow over the past few days I’ve become mentally overwhelmed. I haven’t felt stressed in a long time but for some reason things have been getting to me and I feel exhausted. My job is stressing me out but only because I want to find a new job. Relying on a commission check is just not how I want to live anymore, considering one month I can have a $500 commission then the next month have a $50 commission. It’s impossible to survive off a shitty hourly rate with a shitty commission check. The drama at work here may be just as bad as at the salon. You’d think working with mostly men would create a drama-free environment, however some men have worse pms than women. I just want to do my job and be able to converse with people without sitting at a desk all day on the telephone. Every day I struggle to keep my eyes open because my job puts me to sleep. yesterday I let myself take my frustration out on people,instead of just trying to tackle the issues within, which is not okay. But I guess no one is perfect and it happens sometimes. I just wish it didn’t.
random- i wish my body wasnt hurting so bad right now! i dont know if I believe or care what anyone says or thinks i have (or if i even have anything, for that matter) i really dont (doctors diagnosis included). i just want some pain relief right now. feels like my back was hit by a truck lol
a massage from a certain boy would suffice.
on a lighter note, it was absolutely beautiful out this afternoon :)